It's been a while, since I've been here, and that's okay. I don't exactly know how to write this journal entry, but it has to be done or else, I fear, I will get no sleep the next 3 nights. I, also, cannot post this to Facebook. This story begins with the following question, "What does a math major have to do to attempt to win over an art major?" Join deviantart, of course. The story starts there, but doesn't end there. There are benefits to not dating your close friends. You get to keep those friendships.
I, however, dated a fellow math major. She was going to be a teacher, and I was (potentially) going to go to grad school, and we were going to live happily ever after. At least, that's what I told myself up until she broke up with my and left my heart in a million different pieces. I could understand her, I could mimic her thought process, I knew her reactions before I did things, and yet she didn't want to date anymore. That was 5 years ago.
Fast forward, 4 1/2 years and I finally meet someone that I would actually consider dating. Oddly enough, it helps if you're a nerd and like nerdy things like Dungeons and Dragons, Video Games, and, oh, yeah, Fantasy worlds. My friend, we'll call him Luthais, was DM'ing our little groups' (me and 1 other person) campaign and he said he invited some other friends, but for some reason or another could just never seem to work with their schedules so they'd never be able to come. I started teasing him that these friends were imaginary, and that he should see if, at work, more people were interested in playing. In March, oddly it was 3/14 (so Pi day), he calls me and says that he got someone else to play and that she would be coming that Saturday. Okay, odd, he did say female, and that she was excited to play. He sent me a picture, she's cute, but we'll see if she actually comes that Saturday. (She's only missed 2 Saturdays, one for a concert, one being sick).
She came, and oh, boy, I was screwing everything up. I'm totally not okay with her being there, but at the same time I want her there. Thankfully, my friend's wife, decided to go back to school, and she needed to take a math class. Friend's wife would message me during our little D&D sessions and I'd go upstairs and help her and go back down to the game.
Obviously, I'm conflicted about this girl (we'll call her Paige), and who better to ask than another female? Friend's wife (we'll call her Penny) was taking a math class over the summer, so I'd drive down there (1 hr. drive) give her math help, and get girl help in return. She convinces me to ask Paige for a game night, kind of a double date (I cooked chicken parmesan, it was delicious), and we ended up playing Bananagrams and Uno. Fast forward to August, and we have another game night, we played Killer Bunnies. During the game, Penny and Luthais, were at each other's throats (seriously how do they stay married?!?), and I leaned over to Paige and said, "I don't know if you've noticed, but it's truly us vs. them right now. I have something in my hand that could potentially help you, but the card might come with conditions."
Needless to say, I got dinner out of that little card (Depending on how you're actually counting that would be either Date 1 or Date 3). I'm quite happy with that, but I call her to set up the followup date. Penny wants to play Killer Bunnies again, and has been trying to get me to play Monopoly with them for months. (Either Date 2 or Date 4 depending on if you count the first two) We go to dinner, then go to play games. We ended up playing Monopoly. Thankfully, friendships made it out alive and intact. But, this weekend, Paige and I, just dinner and a movie.
Now, never mind, that I can't read this girl at all. Never mind, that I'm terrible with dating to begin with. Never mind, that I'm more hesitant this time around since I've had my heart shattered and that I don't want that to happen again. I like this girl, a lot. I want this to work. Granted, I'm glossing over details, but the point, I guess, I'm trying to make is, I'm still feeling the effects of the failed relationship. I haven't let my feelings get in the way, ever, but dang, it's hard.